+ETERNAL MOON+

I just happened to see the moon outside after I've take care of my young kittens. Looks like it'll be full moon. Maybe tomorrow or the day after tomorrow, huhu... I used to like looking at the stars every nite but now I'm very fond of the moon. Maybe because lately I've spend my nights looking at the moon with 'someone'. And that 'someone' makes me forget all those sorrowful past which left my heart in bruises. Huhuhu... Come to think of it, I remember that I love moon since I was in standard 3. But growing up to be a teenager made me forget most of the things that makes me 'me'. I guess I've lost a large part of my life when I entered high school. Huh... But now I try to get back my life. I'm trying very hard to remember everything that I've forgot. E.g. my hobbies, etc... To be precise, things that made me special yet strong. Seeing the moon tonight after a few months didnt have a chance to see it make me realize how much I've missed. Er... especially that 'someone', hehe... I guess after this we'll have a proper date under the moonlight, singing songs together... and spend the whole nite together (not sleeping together ok...). Haha... fall in love really make one happy. Well, as I'm still allowed to build happy memories in this short time, I'll go through with it. Can't wait when we'll magically united (^-^)

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+LOVE AND BEAUTY+

Again and again aku asyik menulis psl love. Agaknye memang xleh lepas dr topik ni, haha... Layan je... 1st skali, aku nak gtau yg aku dah stat cuti and melepak2 kat umah sampaila ujung bulan 12 ni. Huhuhu... Best becuti tapi kalo lelame busan gak. Nasib baikla cuti ni akan dipenuhi ngan blaja memandu n try dptkan lesen P utk kete. Next sem leh g merayau malam2, haha... (gelak jahat). And aku nak ucapkan time kacih kat Hotlink n Maxis yg akan memenuhkan inbox phone aku sepanjang cuti ni. X tau r nak men sms ngan sape. Membe2 suma dah bekapel. Aku yg solo ni kenela paham... (nape aku sorg je yg kene paham? heran tol).

Babalik kat kesah love td, aku nak sambung cte pasal si B ngan C dlm post ILLUSION yg lepas. Pekembangan kesah diaorg ni semakin menarik. Hm.. camne nak stat ek. Kebelakangan ni, B ngan C makin banyak spend tyme together. Mende ni wat B makin jatuh hati kat C. Kate B kat aku, die sangat suke bile C senyum kat die ari2. Mcm angelic smile katenye. Aku pon tegelak je, haha... Bedasarkan gerak hati aku n pengalaman sebagai posmen (tyme skola menengah), rase2nye C mcm ade feeling gak kat B. Tapi tahle. Memasing cam xnak confess feeling memasing.

Aku x dptle wat pape, biar diorg sndr yg setelkan feeling memasing. Hopefully sblm telambat, huhu... Tapi B kate die bahgie kalo camni trus. Asalkan C x abaikan die pon die dah rase ckup bahgie. Aku yg dgr pon rase cam sdey, tp B kate die x dpt confess feeling die kat C atas sebab2 tertentu. Untuk kebaikan suma org katenye lagi. Aku pon nasehatkan B supaye trus je bekawan ngan C tu. Maybe diaorg dah ditakdirkan sebagai kawan je, kite nak ubah pon x kan boleh.

Cume 1 ayat dari B yang watkan aku trase mcm dlm telenovela, huhu... Die kate feeling die kat C xkan brubah sampai bile2 pon. Walaupun die dah jumpe org len n xkan jmpe C lagi pasni, die akan sentiase letak C dlm tempat yang istimewa kat dlm hati die. Sian die. Alasan die xleh confess feeling die, hanye aku sorg je yg tau, huhu... Tapi slagi B gembire, aku pon turut gembire. Harap2 akan ade pekembangan yg positif kat diorg ni. Aku sebagai love reporter akan trus update lg crite diaorg ni, haha...

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+ALWAYS BE MINE+

I hear you breath
You’re lying close to me
The shadows gone
I have found my peace

Oooh You make me calm
With you I’m safe from harm
And right by your side
I’ll stay thru the night
‘til eternity
That’s the way it will be

And I wonder what you’re dreaming of
You’re so peaceful when you sleep
Everything I want everything I need is lying here in front of me

And if I ever lose my power to fly
Then your love takes me high
I’ll always be true to you
Sometimes I think I might lose it all
Guess the chances are small
Cause you hold me close I feel you near
Don’t let go say you’ll always be here
So just hold me tight and I’ll be fine
Dreaming you will always be mine

Just like the sun
You make me warm inside
Like a soft summer breeze
A moment to seize
So true I won’t stop loving you

And I wonder what you’re dreaming of
You’re so peaceful when you sleep
Everything I want everything I need is lying here in front of me

And if I ever lose my power to fly
Then your love takes me high
I’ll always be true to you
Sometimes I think I might lose it all
Guess the chances are small
Cause you hold me close I feel you near
Don’t let go say you’ll always be here
So just hold me tight and I’ll be fine
Dreaming you will always be mine

And I wonder what you’re dreaming of
You’re so peaceful when you sleep
Everything I want everything I need is lying here in front of me

And if I ever lose my power to fly
Then your love takes me high
I’ll always be true to you
Sometimes I think I might lose it all
Guess the chances are small
Cause you hold me close I feel you near
Don’t let go say you’ll always be here
So just hold me tight and I’ll be fine
Dreaming you will always be mine

*This song is for someone special who brighten up my days and always make me smile, haha... Thank you...

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+ILLUSION?+

There's definitely some sort of magic involve in a relationship. Er... I'm referring to love between two people mostly. I've met people who were desperately wanted to find love and people who easily got love and loved. There were also people who confused about their own feeling, whether what they felt was love or not. And some people just using love as an excuse to fulfill their lust and play with other people feelings (I hate them so much, haha).

Aku dah dengar banyak version of other people love story. Ade yang bahagie, ade yang tak. Ade yang jadi stronger, ade yang terus mengharap. Kepade yang betol2 ikhlas nak bercinte 2, anda suma mendapat sokongan yang padu dari saye (saye??). Tapi kepade yang nak main2 tu, pikir2kanla. Anda suma dah besar and ade akal. Mungkin balasan itu akan terkene kepade keluarge kite, sape tau. Mase tu janganla nak marah2 plak sebab kite pun penah buat mende yang same kat org len k...

Bile becakap pasal feeling ni, teringat kat sorg ni. Aku panggil die B je. B telah jatuh hati kepade C tapi C ni x perasan pun. Kirenye B ni dah suke kat C secare senyap2. Maybe sebab C ni baik sangat kat die kot, huhu... B dah berkali2 try nak lupekan C tp x dpt sbb susah sangat. Yang susahnye bile B dah nak lupekan C ni, C sentiase wat mende yang leh wat B jatuh hati kat C. So macam manela B nak lupekan C? Bukanla nak lupekan terus, just nak get rid of the feeling je. Adekah feeling B kat C just suke or illusion semate2? Hm...

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+FLAME AND PASSION+

Hati aku sangat panas! Terbakar mcm gamba api kat atas ni. Aku bengang dengan 'mereka'! Bile aku diam je 'mereka' ni pijak kepale aku. Bile 'mereka' ni nak something dari aku bukan main baik lagi. Bile aku yang mintak tolong mule r, macam2 alasan bagi. Penatla, busy, nak stadi, nak tdo. Boleh blah r suma 2. So di sini aku akan tuliskan segale ketidakpuasan hati aku yang tengah tebakar ni. Peduli ape aku korg nak ckp aku cakap belakang ke, hape ke. Korg pon same je.

1st skali, lepas ni aku xkan mintak tlg korg anta g memane lagi. Biarla aku penat jalan nak g kolej ke, g makan ke. Jalan kaki je pon bley. Kalo aku nak blk naik teksi je. X payah susah2 nak anta. Bile aku bawak transport aku sendiri setel suma problem.

2nd, aku je yg susah2 ajak member2 lame aku lepak. Lepas ni suma 2 x payah dah. Aku dah penat k. Padahal bukan jauh mane pon. Tempat aku ni lagi jauh nak trn KL 2. Bukannye aku x tau korg slalu gak trn KL. Malu agaknye nak lepak2 ngan aku budak diploma ni. Blah r!

3rd, kepade sesape yang x reti2 nak pulangkan hak aku 2, siap r korg. Jangan ingat aku yang sentiase diam n x reti nak besuare ni bodoh. Aku sangat penat dengan suma ni n aku akan wat ape je sampai korg yang x mampu nak menangis pun. Mende ni bukan je menyusahkan aku, tapi family aku. So bile dah involvekan family aku, korg leh mampos!!!!

Lastly, 'mereka' yang pijak2 kepale aku sekarang, siap2 r untuk dipijak oleh aku plak. 'Mereka' ni akan kenal dengan aku yang ego, angkuh n keras kepale. I will definitely get my revenge. Damn it!!!

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