12/25/2011

+ CHRISTMAS +


Whoa... this is the 1st time I received a Christmas gift in my whole life. What makes it more special is that I got it from someone who is currently special in my life now. Thank you, I'm really touched, speechless and almost cry, haha. So dramatic. But yeah, I'm happy. Sorry we started the day with a quarrel. Looking forward for more memories with you in the future =)

p/s : I smile like 'orang gila' now

12/24/2011

+ STILL INTO U +

It is about 5 months we got separated and our distance became wider. Finally we broke up. Another of less than one year relationship. I think I'm lucky in everything except in love matters. I'm sad but I cannot do anything. We both have our own reasons and for your sake, I just have to sacrifice. I just can wish you'll be happy in the future. But why I keep on dreaming of u after we break up? It really hard for me like this... *sigh*. Happy birthday in advance to u =(

12/20/2011

+ QUICK UPDATE +

In a progress to make a really important decision. God please give me the strength that i need the most right now.

12/13/2011

+ KEKONFIUSAN +

Malam ini aku rasa sangat konfius.
Makin fikir2 makin konfius.
Nak tanya pun dapat jawapan konfius.
Aku pon dah x paham.
Jadi malas nak fikir2 dah.
Ada sesetengah perkara patut diabaikan.
Tapi rasanya aku makin menjadi bukan aku.
Super konfius.
Bila dah serabut mcm ni mula la buat menda yang bukan2...

P/S :Who cares right? I can just pray to God to show me the right path.

12/05/2011

+ LOVE AGAIN +

I thought this was the end of my memory
The faces I’ll never see again pass me by
I stood at the end where I couldn’t do anything
I put my hands together and just prayed

So I could show you my heart

That still hasn’t done everything

Get up again
I want to see you who has waited for me
Go back again
I want to say “I love you”

I thought the entire world stopped
Only the happy times pass me by

I stood at the end I thought I wouldn’t have
I just prayed like that
So I can feel the love
That I’ve passed by

Get up again
I want to see you who has waited for me
Go back again
I want to say “I love you”
I’ve lived without knowing
How precious you are

Get up again
I want to see you who has waited for me
Go back again
I want to say “I love you”

11/19/2011

+ WE GOT MARRIED +

I did watched and still watching We Got Married when I have free time. Though they were just a virtual couple but who cares right? haha... And here is my favourite couple, the Goguma couple a.k.a. Yongseo couple. I had so much fun watching them but sadly they are no longer in the show. Hope my wife-to-be will be someone who is a perfect match for me =) Why suddenly talk about wife? Jeng3~ haha. But Seohyun, I really like u in the show coz u are so... PRETTY ^^. U and Yonghwa look good together =D




P/S : Wanna have wedding photoshoot too. LOL

11/12/2011

+ I'M SORRY +

I never thought that we will become like this. Here I am, asking for forgiveness if what I said hurt u, made u stress and I angry. I really don't have the intention to do that, I just care about our relationship and I just want to save it from falling apart. It has been 10 months and I don't want to waste both of our efforts all these time. Maybe I demand too much and impatient. Maybe the blame is on the both of us. I don't know where we will go from here but we need to work something out. I hope break up is not the option ( i really mean it). Once again, I'm truly sorry =(


11/07/2011

+ I... +

10/31/2011

+LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIP+

10/19/2011

+24+

It has been raining for a few hours and I'm getting hungry (again). Sure will get chubbier this semester (don't care anymore). While rummaging through my pics folders in my lovely laptop, I noticed that how I've change through these 24 years of my life. Yes, already 24 years and soon to be 25. Proud of it, heheh. Still, my future seems a bit hazy, but just let God decide (which is already been written long before I was born). I do change during these years, internally. Used to be a very shy person until people around me consider me as "sombong". And used to be a bit rebel during my teenager period (but not to the extent where I give troubles). But now I'm a different person. Not totally different, still maintain some qualities from back then but gaining more confidence in my life. Thanks to some amazing friends I met in my journey. I owe you guys. As you can see, there's no pic from my school time. I don't have so much pic from my primary school time. As for my high school, just forget it. It sucks and I don't want to remember it (sorry). Got to go now, got something to do.

P/S : I didn't change my image so I can be 'hot' or popular. It just something I've been wanting for years =)


10/14/2011

+POSITIVE AGAIN+

*Tarik nafas dalam2*. It's Saturday morning and somehow I'm feeling so alive =) Somehow I just realize that I'm getting more negative these past few weeks, which is bad. Some people even ask me "Syam, why are u so garang now?". Funny though, I'm not the type who scold people, who get angry on every single thing. No wonder my immune system becomes weaker and I havent been able to cure from my flu (two weeks already). Just now muhasabah diri and I realized that what is wrong is that I neglect my God too long, and He is punishing me for that reason. I'm really sorry because I put human as priority than You. I'll try to change and please guide me to be a better person. Thanks to You now that I realize I'm just a weak human and I can only be strong if I love You. Now my mind is clearer and I can smile again.

"Dengan nama Allah, Yang Maha Pemurah, lagi Maha Mengasihani. Segala puji tertentu bagi Allah, Tuhan yang Memelihara dan Mentadbirkan sekalian alam. Yang Maha Pemurah, lagi Maha Mengasihani. Yang Menguasai pemerintahan hari Pembalasan (hari akhirat). Engkaulah sahaja (Ya Allah) Yang Kami sembah dan kepada Engkaulah sahaja kami memohon pertolongan. Tunjukilah kami jalan yang lurus. Iaitu jalan orang-orang yang Engkau telah kurniakan nikmat kepada mereka, bukan (jalan) orang-orang yang Engkau telah murkai dan bukan pula (jalan) orang-orang yang sesat." ( Al - Faatihah)


+KEBOSANAN+

Hm... Just got back from acara makan2 with my friends. Burger King, nasi lemak, hot hazelnut chocolate from Starbucks... Sure will be chubbier this sem. But what to do besides eating? Very bosan these days. FYP belum start (semangat dah x berkobar2 dah). And penang climate do make me sick. Almost 2 weeks and my flu doesnt 100% recover. I slept like crazy, even skipped a few classes already. I think I need to go home and spend time there to kill this boredom. Gosh I hope I will not do something stupid (which already done, a bit). But it was not my fault. And they are not serious matter anyway. Who cares right, I was totally bored and need some motivation. Will slack off more in the future (but still under control). I know my limit but I hope this boredom will go away. Still I hope things will get the way like before. I do understand that people change as time goes by but please, dont change too much. I'm afraid me myself will change too and at the end everybody will regret and make wrong decisions. I'm a hardheaded person and it's hard for me to cry or shows that I'm sad. I might say everything is ok and just smile but it doesnt mean I didnt hurt. I'm also just a human and like I said there's a limit I can be patient. It just that I'm the type who doesnt know how to show it because yeah, I do not know how to show the expression... Merepek2 sudah (effect of sugar rush). Should sleep now...

10/03/2011

+HEARTSICK+

I miss the time when we both are not busy (before these 9 months). It much more sweet and passionate than now. Hmm...

9/26/2011

+MY FINAL YEAR PROJECT+

SUSTAINABLE MANAGEMENT FOR INTEGRATED MANGROVE AQUACULTURE SYSTEM.

Project description:
The objective of this project is to develop a management model of integrated mangrove-aquaculture farming systems for achieving coastal sustainability. It will also identify the nutrient loading of shrimp farm effluent through extensive water quality analysis. Sungai Pinang shrimp farming area will be selected. Several sampling points will be fixed for water quality analysis during water discharge. This project will find a model for sustainable coastal aquaculture system which might be helpful to further expansion of aquaculture activities in sustainable way.

FIRST:
I did not apply for this topic.

SECOND:
I don't have any idea about how to develop a management model bla bla bla...

THIRD:
A senior told me that this is a new topic, so it might be a bit difficult to do it for the first time. ( i hope not )

BUT:
I think i have to accept this topic as I believe that what I always get is the best for me. Though I really want that seahorse project. (pointer x cukup, padan muka aku x dpt tajuk tu, haha). Nevermind, we'll see the progress as time flies. Gonna have a wonderful time =)

9/09/2011

+3RD YEAR, YEAH!+

First of all, the pic up there is uploaded coz someone seems to like it a lot. So I just edit it a little n wala! Not so good in editing pics, haha... That is me when i was 2 or 3 years old? Dunno... Seeing how little I used to be make me grateful that I still alive until now =) Thank you God.

Right now I'm hiding under my blanket writing this entry. It's just raining outside and it is freezing. Kawanku dah msg kate tedo2, jgn layan K-Pop je. How did he knew? haha.... Well, I'm having a hard time now. I'll be back in Penang on Monday and my heart feels like dont want to live home. I want to stay like this forever, with my family. For years I left home to study and I missed quality moments with them. Be strong Charm, only 2 semesters left. But... hmm...

Speaking of which, I'm officially in my 3rd a.k.a. FINAL YEAR. Horray! Lots to catch up butI have faith on myself. Need to be more organized (I'll make myself a planner after this). Lots of free time but I have to remember I have FYP to settle. Keep that in mind ya =). Gonna work hard to increase my pointer and grades. Work hard and work smart (somebody always said this to me). Emm.. thats it I think. Tomorrow will pack my stuff and sayonara my lovely home *sobs =( *

9/07/2011

+UNDER CONSTRUCTION+

I tried to change my blog template, and somehow i messed up. Not into this computer science thing. So i declare my blog is under construction. Gonna edit a few things here and there, hehe... Maybe tomorrow =p

7/17/2011

+KL n AMPANG OUTING+


Salam 1 Malaysia...hua3~

Tahun 2011 amatla kurang mengupdate blog ni. Nak tulis dlm bahasa inggeris pon mcm malas nak pikir. So, campur2la ek. Merojak. Ala, bahasa je, asalkan org paham sudah. X payah nak berkire sangat campur2 bahasa melayu n inggeris. Time ni aku baru lepak2 balik keje (ahad pon keje). Punyela penat sebab projek besar masok. Boss pon tersenyum je la (which is creepy) income msk bnyk. Yang penatnye pekerja2 ni ha. Sampai aku kene korbankan cuti aku sok (half day je la). Satu bulan setengah je, bertahan la ye Charm...

Last week 8-10 Julai aku telah membuat lawatan sambil belajar ke KL n Ampang (haha). Salah timing betolla ade perhimpunan bersih tu. Kalo x sabtu tu aku dah meround2 KL cari kain baju. Ish... Tapi ari jumaat sempatla membeli belah sket, dapat barang2 yang berbaloi, hehe... Tapi tujuan utama nak jumpa kawan baikku si kasanova Ammar (wahaha). Dah dekat 2 tahun x jumpe, huhu. Makin kurus mamat ni, ish3~ Lepak2 bercerita, karoke ngan kawan dia Zharif (aku x nyanyila). Kalo la x keja pnya psl mmg aku lepak lama lg sana. Xpa la my fren, laen kali je. Be strong! hehe... Raya nnti ade time ke sana la lagi. Penatla nak out dlu layan DVD n tedo... =)


*sori beb curi gamba dari fb ko, haha*

6/27/2011

+CUTI2 MALAYSIA+

Wahaha... xde kaitan pon tajuk ngan ape yang aku nak bebel2kan ni. Cuma isi masa lapang je sbb bosan dah x taw nak buat ape. Dah 2 bulan x menulis so mcm blur sket. Sekarang tengah cuti sem, 4 bulan lamanya. Dah nak masuk bulan 7 pun. Hopefully cepatla bulan 9, tapi bkn sebab rindu kampus ok... Sebabnye agak x tahan suasana kerja. Oh btw, cuti ni aku wat kerje part tyme as an embroider. Menarik jugakla sebab blaja something selain biologi tu... Disaster pun ade gak, tapi everything settle dengan jayanya. Thank you GOD. Kerja bagus2 je, banyak lagi kene blaja. Cume macam yang dinyatakan di atas, environment x brape bgsla. X pasal2 fizikal n mental mmg kene uji habis habisan. Kerenah org yg baik buruk x pernah aku jumpe suma ada. Yang tu biarla disimpan je, x pyh cite. X kesah kene kerja keras tapi suasana yg x fun buat aku rasa x semangat dah keje. Tapi bertahan je la, pasni cari tempat keje laen pla, huhu.... Kerja2...

Kalo pasal study, agak dilupakan dengan sengaja la jgk. Bukan senang nak dpt cuti 4 bulan ni so watpe pkr psl stadi kan. Lagipun aku bknnye org yg gila stadi, wahaha... Penatla dari umur 5 tahun sampaila 24 tahun ni tu je keje aku. Dahla kemungkinan extend tu mcm ade je. Tapi bukan sebab fail la, sebab subjek minor yg clash tu. Bengang btol camni. Arap setel la nnti, xkan sebab 1 subjek aku kene extend 1 sem, haih... Macam manela org yg wat sistem jadual ni, tensen aku. Result pon dah keluar. Biase2 je x gempak pon. Syukurla suma lulus, lgpun dah pulun kaw2 sblm exam so puas hati. Cume kene tingkatkan lagi untuk 2 semester last ni. Lagipon dah kene sound ngan parents suro naekkan lagi pointer. Misi besar tu, so next sem sori ek, x nak telibat ngan apa2 dah. Enjoy2, hm... akan dipikirkan. Lagipon kene pkr mane yg lagi penting btol x? Akan enjoy jgk tp akan dikurangkan. Minimum tengok wayang, makan2 then balik.

Huargh... ngantok suda. Dah x taw ape nak merepek lagi so tedola. Sok kene keje lagi, haih.... Akan cuba cari topik yg menarik utk ditulis, huhu

4/28/2011

+PERSONALITIES BY BLOOD TYPE+


Blood Type A:
Positive Traits: Conservative, introverted, reserved, patient, punctual and inclined to be perfectionists.
Worst Traits: Obsessive, stubborn, self conscious and uptight.
Referred as ‘farmers’ in some descriptions, Type A’s are said to be considerate of others and loyal to a fault. They can also be secretive and reluctant to share their feelings. Apparently they don’t hold their liquor well, either.

Blood Type B:
Best Traits: Animal-loving, creative, flexible, individualistic, optimistic and passionate.
Worst Traits: Forgetful, irresponsible and self-centered.
Referred to as ‘hunters’, Type B’s have very independent natures and tend not to be concerned about what other people think of them. Although often described as shallow and lazy, they can be quite passionate about the things they hold dear. Patience is not their strong suit either.
Type B men have acquired a very negative reputation in Korea and are not considered by many to be good husband material. Often described as ‘players’, they are perceived as being selfish and mercurial, quick to anger and not terribly reliable. That said, their bad boy image makes them very attractive to women, but not for the long term. (Type B women do not share in this bad rep, for some unexplained reason).

Blood Type AB:
Best Traits: Cool, controlled, empathic, introverted and rational.
Worst Traits: Aloof, critical, indecisive and unforgiving.
Referred to as ‘humanists’, Type AB’s are said to be controlled more by their heads, than by their hearts. They are rational, good with money, but unpredictable. Although inclined to be distant, they prefer harmony and as such, work well with mediators. Some consider them two-faced, and therefore untrustworthy.

Blood Type O:
Best Traits: Ambitious, athletic, robust and self-confident.
Worst Traits: Arrogant, insensitive, ruthless and vain.
Referred to as ‘warriors’, Type O’s are viewed as natural leaders and are often, also, natural athletes. They tend to be outgoing, expressive and passionate, but can also bore others to death with their obsessive drive for success coupled with their absolute convictions that they are winners. This certainty that they will always win explains why they aren’t afraid to take risks or gamble. They have a strong physical presence and are unlikely to ever be overlooked.

According to Bella Online, an international site for women, the best compatibility matches are as follows:

A is most compatible with A and AB

B is most compatible with B and AB

AB is most compatible with AB, B, A and O

O is most compatible with O, and AB


4/27/2011

+MANDAILING+

From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

The Mandailing is a traditional cultural group in Southeast Asia. They are found mainly in the northern section of the island of Sumatra in Indonesia. They came under the influence of the Kaum Padri who ruled the Minangkabau of Tanah Datar. As a result, the Mandailing were influenced by Muslim culture and converted to Islam. Previous to their conversion, they practised Hinduism andParmalim (Batak native religion). There are also a group of Mandailing in Malaysia, especially in the states of Selangor and Perak. They are closely related to the Angkola, who are mixed between Muslim and Christian adherents.

Etymology

The etymology of 'Mandailing' is said to be a coupounding of the words mande, meaning 'mother', and hilang, meaning 'lost'. Thus, the name is said to mean "lost mother". Some research has suggested that the Mandailing are the descendants of the Batak, who migrated to the south before the coming of the Portuguese and Dutch colonisation of Sumatra. There they converted to Islam and intermarried with Minangkabau and the Malay peoples. Mandailing society is patriarchal, employing family names, or marga, in the same manner as the Batak, Simalungun, and Karo. The same marga can be found, such as Lubis, Nasution, Siregar, Hasibuan, Harahap, Dalimunthe (originally from Munthe), Matondang, Rangkuti, Parinduri, Pulungan, Rambe, Daulae(y), Pohan, Batubara (not to be confused with the Batu Bara people from the east coast of Sumatra), Barus and Hutajulu

4/04/2011

+RAHSIA BAHASA TUBUH LELAKI+

I got this from Facebook. Dunno they are true or not. Featuring Kim Bum, heheh. I wonder which body language I always did? Hm...








3/14/2011

+MARCH 2011+

Bulan Mac sudah menjelma. 14 Mac arini. Bulan depan sudah final exam. Argh!!! Belum stadi la lagi. Sebabnye? Assignment asyik datang n datang. Lecturer x penat ke kasi assignment? Ish... Setakat ni ade 3 report yang belum setel, 1 group work, cover letter+resume+job advertisement, test... Padahal 9 April dah study week. Amat penat ye di sini. Rase mcm nak pukul orang pon ade gak, haha... Makan x terurus, kehidupan sosial dah 3 bln terganggu... Ape lagi? Hmm... Banyak aktiviti bulan Februari n Mac ni tapi akan update laterla. Tak sempat2 nak upload gamba n bebel2. Ah lapar, melantak megi tom yam dulu, heheh...

3/04/2011

+FAIZ AZMAN+

On 27th of January 2011 I lost one of my good friend. Only today I have the courage to write about him. It was shocking as this is the first time someone who close to me just left like that. I didn't have the opportunity to meet him for the past two years. May u rest in peace my friend. Later when my time comes, I'll follow u. Al-Fatihah...

2/03/2011

+2 FEBRUARY 2011+


HAPPY 1ST MONTH ANNIVERSARY TO BOTH OF US =)

1/14/2011

+DUA RIBU SEBELAS PART 2+

This is the continue from the previous entry. Haven't been able to update about myself because I was and still suffering from my illness. Fever, flu and cough. And it almost 2 weeks now. But I'm recovering. However, need to see the doctor twice. After got the antibiotic during my 2nd time visited Pusat Sejahtera, then I feel better. Penat telan ubat ok... But yes, I was really suffering and in pain especially my head. The doctor said that I had some kind of infection, that's why I had headache. Hopefully by next week I am fully recovered. Missed two classes already, without MC.

Hm... Let's talk about my activities right now. I involve in the 2nd Open Relay USM committee as the treasurer. At first, I was the vice treasurer. Then something came up and I was elected as the treasurer. It's kind of fun, though tiring at the same time. Learn a lot, make friends, and I'll try my best to make this event a success. The event will take place on 12th of February 2011. Next is Malam Citrabayu which will take place on 26th of February. Will dance for the last time, huhu... And the practice will start on next week??? Aiyo, penatla pasni. Under the Biosociety, I involve with the Beach Clean Up Project as AJK Teknikal Dan Fizikal and Bionite as AJK Publisiti. Both will be around February and March. Then I can get back to my normal life as a student, heheh...

This semester will be the last time I involve in any activities. Dah tua kena retired, haha... The truth is I want to enjoy my third year, which is practically next semester, in a very leisure way. Time sure goes by quickly, and yet I haven't reach my target. Haih... Work harder Charm!

*Cant wait for February or March to come, heheh*

1/06/2011

+DUA RIBU SEBELAS+

Helo. The title for this time is "DUA RIBU SEBELAS" which refers to 2011. And which means this is my 4th semester in USM. 2 semesters left, thank God. I've been in USM from 18.12.2010 because I involved with the centralize training with the athletes. Though I'm not an athlete myself, just join the Track and Field Club in the management team. Yes it was tiring but most of the time, we the Santai Group had so much fun. My aim is to increase my fitness, so I can become stronger and more energetic. But somehow my body is so fragile and I can hurt easily. My legs still feel pain whenever I tried to run. Well... cant do anything about it. I just have to find another way to keep fit, haha...

My result for the 3rd sem is not what I expected. So I've become so stress after I checked it at the Healthy Campus. I knew it will goes bad but not this bad. Aiyo... But now I regained back my spirit, just have to do better this time. So this sem I'm taking 5 subjects which is 17 units:

BAT213-Ekosistem Pinggir & Marin
BST203-Ekologi Populasi & Komuniti
HET123-A Study of Language
HET224-Gaya Dalam Kesusasteraan Semasa Dalam Bahasa Inggeris
LSP402-Scientific & Medical English

The beginning of 2011 is not a good year for me. I'm having fever right now. My head keeps throbbing. I think I fall sick because I had been stress for the past 2 weeks. Somebody pissed me off... until now la. Haih... malas la nak komen panjang. No comment. Kasi jawapan artis, ngeh3... It's no good at all, must shove away all the negativity that have been starting invading my mind. Shooh3!!!

But...Aside from the negatives, there is also a positive side came along. Hehe... Dengan memendekkan cite, I've fall in love after 3 years ++ being single. It is too early to say much, so lets see what will happen in the future. Hope everything will goes well between us. I think I have to stop here as my eyes are getting heavier. Baru je telan ubat2 yg mengantukkan diri ni. Haih... Nak membebel bnyk lg tapi kepala dah tingtong la. Nanti tulis mende yg x sepatutnye plak. Nyte =)



 

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