12/14/2007

A TOUGH CHOICE

Hari ni cerah setelah beberape hari aku kesejukan akibat hujan. Cerahnya hari ini seperti hatiku yang cerah di hari baru. Urgh! I can’t believe I say this, haha… Walaupun cerah tapi aku x keluar pun. Dah beberape hari berlalu sejak kemarahan aku meletus seperti gunung berapi. Akhirnye aku telah membuat satu keputusan yang amat sukar tetapi berbaloi for everyone’s sake. Mostly for my own sake. Aku kene bersikap selfish kerane semua perkara yang berlaku kebelakangan ni menyebabkan masalah datang menimpe aku bertubi2. Dan aku x dapat buat ape2 untuk menolak semua 2. Terpaksela aku terime semuanye dengan hati yang cekal, cewah… Walaubagaimanepun, THE SOURCE of all the problems has been vanquished. Saini mesti paham, haha… Tak kire r ape pun, aku nak mengabiskan cuti ni ngan gembire sehinggela aku terpakse memerah otak untuk semester depan. 2 math aku kene amek! Bayangkan 2 math! Sedangkan 1 math pun umpame mimpi ngeri buat aku. Okay, I sound a little dramatic, huhu… Yang sebenarnye aku x benci pun math tapi bile melibatkan cos, sin ngan tan, kelam kabut aku dibuatnye. Hopefully repeat math ni akan membuatkan aku lebih paham sebab aku dah belaja mende 2. Anggaple sebagai ulangkaji walaupun aku akan rase tersekse lagi. Argh!!! Buat mase sekarang aku rase aku amat memerlukan aiskrim cornetto jename Wall’s flavour coklat! It can help to reduce my stress… Next week je r beli. I’ll have it just for myself, hua3… Bercakap pasal selfish, salah ke kalau aku bertindak selfish? I just want to do something for myself. Let’s say, for my success? Tapi x kire macam mane pun kekadang aku jadi selfless gak. Mungkin aku terlalu lembut hati sangat agaknye… Oleh itu aku akan menjadi seseorang yang keras hati, hahaha (gelak jahat). Xdela, adela mende yang aku akan jadi, tapi aku pun x tau lg. Semuenye terpulang kepade keadaan dan mase. Luckily my powers are not limited by time and space, hehe… They are the power of will and self respect. No demons and warlocks can steal them, lucky me. Oklah, aku pun dah ngantuk ni. I’m going to sleep and wake up tomorrow fresh and chipper :). Good night!!!

12/08/2007

THERE GOES MY DREAMS...

Now I think I manage to move on. Forgetting something that is bad memories to me is one of my specialties. I learned this during my high school time. Never thought it will come in handy in the future, hehe… Whatever it is life must goes on. I mean, I’m just going to be 21, and I have the rest of my life to worry about other things which make my life so hectic right now. That is if I’m not going to die in the nearest time, huhu… I hope not yet because I still do not get my greatest desire in life. I still do not find what I am looking for and the most important I still do not manage to help people who in need. After that maybe I can rest peacefully without worrying anything, haha… Thinking of all my dreams make me realize how short my life is. There are still a lot I want to do but never enough time to make all my dreams come true. I mean, how do you know what will you be in the next 5 or 10 years from now? Based on my situation right now, I can’t even imagine that future. I wish that I can travel all around the world, visiting historical places, gather a lot of properties, buy everything that I have never have since I was a little boy, meet someone special, having kids, hehe… I can’t help it, okay? Babies are so pure and not to mention cute. The point here is will I have time to have it all? Because right now I’m still struggling with all the responsibilities which burden on my shoulders as a student. I’ve made calculations and if it is accurate, I’ll finish my studies when I am 26 years old. There, I’ll be near 30 that time and when will I build my career and etc? That what have bothering my mind all this while together with other things which are not important and I don’t want to mention here. That is why I wish I can turn back time to change all that had happen. What I had been through all these years have made me someone who I never want to be. That will be my greatest regret in my whole life, or maybe even in my afterlife. I realize that in life no human are perfect but I think I’m worse than everyone else. This is because so many chances were wide opened for me for brighter future and what did I do? I just laying down and let them go. And I get what I deserve. Well, that’s that. Whatever I’ll do will change the past but what I can say is I’ll try my best to make my life even better. To those out there and the next generations, never repeat the same mistake that I’ve done. I’ve learnt my lessons, hard time. Believe me…

12/04/2007

I CAN'T SLEEP,HUHU...

It’s already 3 a.m. and I still can’t sleep. Everytime I close my eyes, I can see images about all things which I don’t want to remember. So I spend my time writing this, hopefully I can get to sleep after this. Laying alone on my bed make me think how I wish my life is different from what I’ve been through these 3 years. Don’t get me wrong, I know that everything happens for a reason but still I have that wish. I also know that I can’t turn back time to change what has already happen. Plus, I’m the one who get myself into this mess and I have to face the consequences. It just sometimes I had second thoughts and regret what had happen to me. In these past 3 years, I almost lost myself. In fact, it is the same feeling I feel right now. I don’t know how long this feeling will stay in me, I hope it’ll gone soon. These few weeks, I had spent most of my time in public library. Haha… I made some new friends there, it a good thing, considering I’m all alone spending my holiday in my room, huhu… Morover, I let my phone rest for this holiday. No SMS, no phone calls… Actually it’s quite bored but I’ve get use to it. I’ve made some research about human emotions during the time I spent in library and yet I still never understand some of the emotions especially when they are falling for someone. Their behaviors completely change. They become so sensitive to what their friends are saying but not to their so called ‘love ones’. What the heck??? I mean, if they know their friends before their love one, they should listen more to their friends’ advice and not to a stranger who he or she fall for. I think it will be totally ridiculous. However, it depends on our own choice right? I don’t have any power to force them to do so. I’ll understand that one day, perhaps. Well, Christmas is just around the corner and I’d like to wish all Christians Merry Christmas. Send my regards to Santa, tell him I am a good boy this year, hehe… My holiday will be over soon, this means my result will come out soon, argh… So afraid thinking of that because I answered badly during the exam. It was not that bad but it was the worst among these 3 semesters. I hope my pointers are maintaining along ‘the edge’, hehe… Can’t wait for the new semester to come so I can make myself busy with books again and forget all my stupid and useless problems. Hm.. I’m getting sleepy now and I think I’ll sleep after I post this. I hope one day I’ll wake up and I don’t hurt anymore. Buh-bye!!!

11/16/2007

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PANJANG!!!

Urgh…It almost 1 a.m. and I still can’t sleep. Plus, my stomach is a little grumbling and I don’t feel so comfortable with it. Maybe I drink too much soda today, hehe… Let’s see… What I’m going to write tonight? Absolutely not about love ok… I had so many heartbroken that I’m beginning to think that I deserve to live without one. At least not now. Well, I think a story about Panjang’s (Danial) birthday would be nice. His birthday was on 31st of October and he thought that he can get away without going through our ‘tradition’, heheh… It was kind of funny, he woke up at 31st morning and asked us why we didn’t wish him happy birthday. Actually he thought that morning was 1st of November, haha… No wonder he was act like a Mr. Nice Guy the night before that. So, Azly had prepared a special water for us to give birthday boy a special bath. Yucks! The smell was so stinky, ish3… However, he try to run away and hide in our junior’s house. He made a mistake because I scried to locate him,hehe… Then he got caught and the ceremony began. I wonder what will be on my birthday next year? Hopefully no stinky water. Argh… Maybe I’ll cast a spell to get them forget about my birthday next year,huhu… Back to Panjang story, he treat us with KFC that night. That made me a little guilty because of our madness that evening. Here I want to say thank you so much to you Panjang for that nice KFC. They’re not cheap,huhu… A bucket for 10 people, definitely expensive. Wish you always success in the future and give me some of your height,heheh…

11/13/2007

FOOLISH LOVE


It really is a foolish love
It really is a foolish love
I only see you
I only love you
Yes, it really is a foolish kind of love
They say you are foolish to believe in love
They say you really musn’t get fooled by love
That’s what I always used to think
But this time I really don’t know
I feel myself changing every time I see you, although I pretend like it’s not happening
I didn’t know that this was called love
I really must be a fool
It really is a foolish love
It really is a foolish love
I only see you
I only love you
Yes, it really is a foolish kind of love
I really dislike ordinary love stories
In the end, they’re all the same kind of stories
Always the same beginnings and obvious endings
I don’t want that kind of love
I feel myself changing every time I see you, although I pretend like it’s not happening
I didn’t know that this was called love
I really must be a fool
It really is a foolish love
It really is a foolish love
I only see you
I only love you
Yes, it really is a foolish kind of love
I can’t just stand here and watch you
Always wanting to approach you, my love-fool
My head, my heart is filled thinking only about you
I’m a fool
The desire to give you everything-my love
Now the desire to be always with you-my life
I’m not even sure if you know or not about my love, my heart-fool
You’re my love
You’re my love
Without you, there is no me
You’re my one and only love
It really is a foolish kind of love
It really is a foolish kind of love
I only see you
I only love you
Yes, it really is a foolish kind of love
It is a foolish kind of love

11/10/2007

FOREVER CHARMED

Hm…My final exam for this semester has finally end.I’m quite happy because I’ll be home tomorrow.At the same time I’m feeling sad to live this house.Maybe it’s because of the free wireless,heheh..Actually I’m going to miss my best friend here,Mac.I don’t have the chance to say goodbye to him face to face.Maybe I’ll send him an SMS.I think tonight I’m going to write a few post,as it will be hard for me to post any of my blogs.And I have all night to do this,haha…It seems that these few weeks I had the obsession on downloading the charmed series.I know that it is my favourite drama series,but it has made me less focus on my exam,hehe..I think that my grades will decrease again this semester.Hopefully not!Damn it!Back to charmed,I really miss the sisters..My favourite character is of course Phoebe Halliwell.Although she doesn’t have active powers which is totally cool,I really admire her.Getting premonitions and having empathy is also not bad.I like the episode forever charmed.My heart is touched everytime I watch that episode.Don’t know why,maybe the determination of Grams(Penny) and Mom(Patty) help Piper to save Phoebe and Paige and at the same time protecting their family make me realize the importance of family..Still at the time I write this blog there are 7 series on the waiting list to finish be downloaded.I believe in magic since I can remember and at the 1st time I watched charmed it was like wow… This drama is really amazing with all the spells and potions they made in the series.I think I’d like to have my own Book Of Shadows one day..Although I knew that there will be no charmed after this,I know that deep inside of me it will be FOREVER CHARMED…cause I’m charmed,hehe…

“THE POWER OF THREE WILL SET US FREE”

10/28/2007

RAYA YANG SEMAKIN BERLALU

Raye sudah berlalu beberape minggu.Aku kat kolej ni terpakse amek final exam,hua3…Demi kecemerlangan manusia sejagat xpe r,huhu…Well,umah kitaorang kat Taman Mawar dah terbakar time ray eke 6 ari tu.Tension mmg tension,rase nak belasah org je.Time2 camni aku sangat harapkan ade power super strength..Fuh…Sabar2…Hmm..Tahun ni rasenye dapat paling banyak skali wish raye dari orang2 sekeliling aku a.k.a member2 aku.Ade yang anta sblm raye,mlm raye,pagi raye,lps raye pun ade..Ade gak dapat dari no yang x dikenali,ish3…Sape r 2 agaknye ek.Hm…Berikut adalah carta orang2 yang anta wish raye kat aku mengikut turutan,hehe…

Aisha
Quek Yi Fong
Unknown number
Alif Fikri
Mac
Eqin
Ikram
Azly
Iqa
Norli
Zakiah
Shidot
Hajar
Bulat
Harith
Milah
Daniel
Yati
Ayun
Ina
Feena
Ira
Kak Hasnidiana
Akmal Saidi
Firdaus a.k.a. Boneart
Kak Jannah
Jala
Fatin
Asri
Shima
Nisaq
Hyde
Mamat
Hasni
Kamal Hakim
Fatihah
Loy
Maya
*Thanx to all of u.Hopefully u have a nice raya and may Allah bless u always..

10/17/2007

SALAM LEBARAN

Ni 1st time tulis blog dlm bahase melayu,hehe...Sempene bulan raye ni xpe r..Hm..raye dah beberape hari berlalu tetapi kite masih lagi dalam bulan Syawal yang mulie ni.Kalau nak dibandingkan dengan raye2 yang terdahulu,raye tahun ni kurang meriah.Kenape ek?Sepanjang raye minggu ni,banyak gak yang dah terjadi.Mule2 sekali x dapat sembahyang raye coz masjid penuh.X sangke r plak.Agaknye ramai orang beraye kat Raub ni,huhu..Aku sambut 1 Syawal di rumah je.Lepas sembahyang raye baru balik ke kampung di K.L (Kuale Lipis).Memang makan x ingat dunie punye,hehe..Ade lemang,rendang,dodol dan bermacam2 kuih raye.Mencari gak almond london tp xde plak.Sedih2..Feveret tuh.Dalam pukul 6 ptg bertolak pulak kat kampung di Tanjung Malim,Perak.Sampai sane dah malam pun..Momo kesayangan aku pun ikut gak,haha..Jauh merantau dari Nilai ke Perak kucing tu.Rase2nye makanan raye untuk tahun ni soto r sebab kat Pahang soto,kat Perak pun soto.X kesah r makan je.Tp mmg sdp,hehe..Kat Perak gi beraye plak kat Kampar,umah pak cik aku.Dapat jumpe cousin aku yang paling comel,Daniel.Aku beraye kat Perak sampai raye ke 3 je.Dapatla berbaik balik ngan Kamil,my other cousin.Wah..suma badan besar2,aku je yang maintain kecik,hehe.Bile balik Pahang balik,adela member2 sekolah rendah yang datang raye kat umah aku ni.X ramai pun,2 orang je.Mamat ngan Akmal.Dah lame x jumpe diaorang banyak gak r borak2.Aku pun gi raye kat umah Mamat ngan Arif je.Memasing nak siap2 balik U coz next week nak final.Ish3,aku pun stadi cincai2 je kat umah ni.Di sini aku nak ucapkan SELAMAT HARI RAYE AIDILFITRI,MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN kepade sesiape yang melawat blog aku ni (rase2nye Saini sorg je,thanx Saini,hua3)..Salam Lebaran..

9/10/2007

MERDEKA!!


At 29th August 2007,our college had celebrated the merdeka day early.It is suppose to be at 31th of August but who cares right?What matters is the spirit to celebrate it,no matter early or late..
There were interesting events that came along with the function such as makan2,karaoke and tradisional dance.MPP worked very hard to make sure that this function a success.The part that i love the most was the duet of bro Wak Joe and Siti Hawa sang the song Dua Insan,hehe..
It was very beautiful!After the function ended,we have a bit jamuan and we have to make sure that everything back in order.Although it was a tiring day,i was really satisfied coz this function was a success and i got nice photos,hehe..Thanx to kak Hasdiana..That night,i slept like a log and missed the morning class on purpose,heheh..

9/01/2007

KENANGAN TERINDAH


Aku yang lemah tanpamu

Aku yang rentan karena

Cinta yang tlah hilang darimu

Yang mampu menyanjungku
Selama mata terbuka

Sampai jantung tak berdetak

Selama itupun aku mampu untuk mengenangmu
Darimu kutemukan hidupku

Bagiku kaulah cinta sejati

Wooo
Bila yang tertulis untukku

Adalah yang terbaik untukmu

Kan kujadikan kau kenangan

Yang terindah dalam hidupku
Namun takkan mudah bagiku

Meninggalkan jejak hidupmu

Yang tlah terukir abadi

Sebagai kenangan yang terindah
Bila yang tertulis untukku

Adalah yang terbaik untukmu

Kan kujadikan kau kenangan

Yang terindah dalam hidupku
Namun takkan mudah bagiku

Meninggalkan jejak hidupmu

Yang tlah terukir abadi

Sebagai kenangan yang terindah


This song really affect me so much,huhu...It makes me think about all things that i've lost.So sad..Kelabu,one of my cats died a few weeks ago.He's one of my best friends at home so i really felt his lost.Anyway,life must go on..I'm at cyber cafe now,trying to find information on my biology assignments.Volvox?somekind of bacteria or virus i think...But i missed that class that day,huhu...This is all because of making preparation for merdeka.Argh!!!My stomach is grumbling again..Matbe i drink soda too much and now it hurts like hell..Compare to what i've been through in all this time,it is nothing but i cant stand it anymore.I really need to go to the toilet right now,haha...Well..memories will always remain as memories,but those will make me more matured in order to get through my journey of life..

8/29/2007

D-DAY

Hm...thimking about the D-Day makes my freak out.I still wonder what exactly the D-Day stands for.Maybe it means divorce...I got it from the korean drama,Full House.Thanks to Ziqa for lending The cd for a long time,heheh...Last Monday I went to Shah Alam to release my tension about a few things.Well...after we (me,Harith,Panjang,Loy and Asri) walked around the Uptown Shah Alam for a few rounds,finally I bought myself a nice sweater and a bottle of perfume.It smells nice,like sweets.Tonight I'm going to UiTM Shah Alam to celebrate merdeka over there.Hopefully I'll get more friends and also nice pictures there.Yesterday we had celebrated merdeka earlier.Preparing for the function took out all the energy in me.Right after the function finished,I went home quickly and slept like a baby until morning.My body still aching due to the fact that I've done a lot to make the function successful.Not very much actually,heheh...But maybe I have to credit myself for my own effort.Have to stop right here,a lot of works are waiting to be solved,how tiring,huhu..

8/27/2007

THE START OF SOMETHING NEW

Hallo...I just get into this blog thing,thanx to my magical friend,Mr. Wyatt,hehe...For beginning,i had a hard time last week.With all the assignments n quizzes n tests,i think i'm going to reward myself a nice and leisure time.Maybe warm brownies and tea might help,heheh...I'm in Shah Alam right now,tomorrow is holiday,yay!Thanks to Harith i'm going to shop at uptown today.I'm going to find myself a nice sweater so i can sleep in a warm,comfy condition.I think that is what i really need now..This song might tell you how i'm feeling right now and the new me,heheh..enjoy!

Dulukan telah diberitahu
Jangan mengganggu di hujung minggu
Nanti dia akan tahu
Rahsia engkau dan aku
Kita sudah sama setuju
Berjumpa hanya bila perlu
Kerana kita sudah punya teman istimewa
Kuhanyalah kekasih separuh masa
Separuh lagi cinta untuk dia
Janganlah kau meminta lebih daripada itu
Kuhanyalah kekasih separuh masa
Dari isnin sampai jumaat sahaja
Janganlah pula kau mengharap
Berdampiran selalu denganku
Jika kau tak terima khabar
Bererti dia ada di siniJ
angan gatal meninggalkan pesan
Curiga dia nanti
Tak perlu kata-kata manja
Itu sudah sering kudengar
Dari dia yang masih tidak tahu
Adanya dirimu
Kuakui ada sesuatu antara kita
Tetapi kutahu bukan seperti biasa

 

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